MVA - How They Can Have an Impact on More Than Just the Car.
Man….. you don’t think about how one situation can totally mess up your whole system until it happens. I realized that a week ago today when I was in a car accident. It was nasty. But nothing broken. Just a concussion and a torn up knee. And lots of bumps and bruises. (And the other person wasn't hurt either.)Then the realization set in yesterday that I am now in a lupus flare. And my adrenal glands are on their way to sending me into an adrenal crisis!!! I wrote my rheumatolgist to see if I could do steroids or anything to prevent the worsening flare. And she told me LIGHT STRETCHING was the only thing I could do. Really?!?!? You hurt as bad as I do everyday and then get on the floor and stretch. If I could even get to the floor there is no way in hades that I could get up. With my knee in an immobilizer and my arms so sore from crutches and the accident I’d be stuck. And they weren’t kidding when they said day two and three would be worse. Holy moly! It’s insane. The scariest part of this whole ordeal wasn't the accident itself. Simply bc I don't remember it. But THAT statement is the scary part. I have absolutely no idea what happened. The ambulance came quickly and whisked me away to the Emergency Room. That's when everything stopped. Apparently they didn't have any rooms in the back, so they set me in wheelchair with my c-collar, crying like a weirdo in the WAITING ROOM. This is where I sat for about two hours before I saw a nurse or dr. Ya I get they were busy. But one would think that a car accident with loss of consciousness would trump other things but I guess not. The whole time I was at the hospital I sat and balled. Like sobbing. I just couldn't quit. But I am so glad my mom was there with me the whole time. I wasn't always nice to her,but we blame the pain meds and the accident on that. But she stayed right there with me. Even at 32 it's nice to have your mom around when you need her!!
I'm a cryer yes. But I never sit and cry inconsolablely for a hour. That's not my norm. So, I can only assume that it was the shock of the accident and concussion I had causing all those tears. The ER Dr told me I had no broken bones or major injuries. Put an immobilizer on my knee and gave me some crutches and sent me out the door. I was glad to go home but the really pain and soreness was just setting in. Man you never believe how much everything is going to hurt for days following an accident until it happens to you. I am still sore and very bruised and it's been a week today. And I still can't bear full weight on my leg. Sigh. We are doing some medical tests and will give my knee another week go see if it heals on its own.
So not only am I deal with my pain and emotions from the car wreck. I am now dealing with the fact that I lost my job. I understand where they are coming from. My absences make it hard to count on me. And now that I can drive or work until the dr clears me. (We are going to test my heart and do an eeg to see if I'm having seizures.) That means I have no idea how long it will be before I am cleared to work or drive. I am not mad at my boss as I know she is looking out for her patients. And right now they need someone who can be there all the time. She did say that if I ever want to come back I can. That I've not burned any bridges. This company was fantastic to work for. And they went above and beyond to make sure I had what I needed. And gave me more chances than anyone else would have with my absences. But It still sucks because I have to go pick up all my belongings thatbwere in my office. Which is sad bc I loved my job and I'm sad that part of my life is over.
Now the question is what am I going to do for money $$. Because sadly we can't live free in today's society. I have become a distributor for the makeup company Senegence. And in doing so have been able to make decent money. So I'm praying that I can continue to grow my buisness and that I can do this and not have to go to work again outside the house at least not right away!! If not I am not sure what route I will go. Only time will tell!!
So many emotions and thoughts are swirling through my head. Who would have ever guessed that losing your car in an accident could be so emotional. I guess for most it's probably not. But buying that car was the last thing my grandpa and I did together before he passed several years ago. So I feel like that car was my last earthly connection I have to him. And that's hard. Because I miss him so much everyday.
Anyway, I'm a little rusty on this whole blogging thing if you can't tell. My thoughts have been all over the place. Which for a Lupie isn't that strange but usually my writing is better than this. But I wanted to share my thoughts and what has been going on in my life. I promise I will now be getting back into blogging now that I have a little more free time!!
Love always ❤️